I got frustrated with myself last night after realizing that I spent all day on an alt and forgot to login to Elfi and use my transmute cool-down to transmute living elements. Then I realized I was online Saturday for several hours and didn’t do it then either. What a waste. I never have been someone who logs in daily, so it’s imperative that I remember to do these types of important things when I have the chance. Come to think of it, by not logging into my main, not only did I waste my transmute cool-down, but I should totally be doing my Firelands and Hyjal dailies. I still have several pieces of green gear, I should be trying to help myself out every chance I get.
So it got me to thinking… I need to try and establish a routine with my WoW so that I don’t just walk around aimlessly, picking pretty flowers and missing out on opportunities. And then I got to thinking… I’ve always been a casual player but I swear I used to have a routine. Oh right, back at my old job when I worked a normal Monday – Friday day shift. My days had a set routine, so my gaming had a set routine. Get off work at x, do chores until y, log in at z and do dailies first, then run randoms second. Then off to bed to get ready to go to work the next day.
Now my days don’t have that type of routine. I work the graveyard shift and while most people are constantly telling me they’d love to be single and working overnights, it really does not thrill me. I don’t want to be single and lonely, I like to be social. And since I live alone, there’s no one around to adapt to my schedule. I still have to fit in with the rest of the world during their normal hours. So I have no routine. I get off work at 8:00am and I stay up several hours running errands in town, going to appointments, etc. Then I get home and try to wind down and be in bed no later than noon. Why no later than noon? Because most of the world is going to be off work and becoming active around 5:00pm so that’s when I need to get up and interact with everyone. Call my parents before they go to bed, visit with friends, etc. Sometimes I develop insomnia because of all the bright, pretty sunlight in the mornings and I don’t go to bed until 2:00 in the afternoon. This means I don’t get up at 5 and when I finally roll out of bed at around 9:00pm, everyone else in the world is winding down and getting ready to go to bed. Then I watch the nightly news and some Jay Leno and I go to work. Fun, right? NO. There’s no routine, every day is different. I don’t go to bed at the same time, I don’t get up at the same time. I don’t eat any meals at the same time. If I don’t get up until 9:00pm then I don’t eat breakfast until 10 o’clock at night. Which means I’m not hungry for lunch at my normal time, so I eat lunch later. Which means I’m not hungry when I get off work, but I get hungry right before bed. If I get out of bed around 5 then I eat around 6 and again around midnight and again around 6:00am. See, not even my stomach gets a routine. If a friend invites me for dinner and wants to eat at 5, I have to get up at 3:30 to shower and drive over there. OMG, I’M RAMBLING.
Point is, I’ve realized I am gaming the way I live. Randomly. Sporadically. Exhausted and unfocused. Things are being left undone. Time is being wasted. My gear is getting dusty. I need a routine. I need to develop a habit of doing my transmutes first thing and doing dailies before logging into an alt. I need to make a schedule of what days I want to spend logged in and dedicate those days to following my routine and then running heroics or questing or whatever. Then the other days can be spent cleaning house and doing errands and it will just make everything so much easier. Most importantly, I need to establish a bedtime and a wake-up time and try to normalize that a bit. Routines really are very helpful.
All of this realization came crashing down on me last night because I forgot to log in and use my transmute. It made me curious, in how many different ways does real life sneak into our games? I mean, this is supposed to be a fantasy game where we can go to escape our real world troubles. Yet our reality won’t leave us alone. Extremely shy people, who SHOULD be able to go into a world of make-believe and anonymity and just let themselves shout from the rooftops, are still extremely shy. People who have had a rough day/week/month at work and are pissy and cranky, who SHOULD be able to login to a world of cartoony landscapes and creatures and relax by laughing at gnomes and huntards, are the cranky and pissy dps in every pug I ever run. People who are disorganized and never know where anything is, who SHOULD be able to use the equipment manager for a one-click solution to lost bracers, are the people who are tanking with their fishing pole. Here’s our chance to reinvent ourselves, to become whatever character we want to and re-write our own history; yet, how many of us live our virtual lives the same way we live our real lives?
I do. Hello. My name is Elfi and I’m an unfocused insomniac.